[x] NiGeL's bLoG HeRe
[x] WhAt'S HeRe ReMaiNs HeRe
[x] TaG bEfOrE U LeAvE
[x] cLiCk oN tHe 4 PiCtUrEs AboVe tO NaviGaTe HeeX... ^^Y
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
11:45 PM
[E]xP[e]Ct tH[e] UnE[x]PecTabLe[s]
geex... i've jus reviewed part of the blog entries i've had for the last year... hahax... i've being so childish... 1st of july 2005... i cried in school... chillx... imagining the whole situation there again... its like as if the whole situation's happening again... imagine the embarrassment i'm having... the actions i've gestured... specific details... gosh... i cant believe i've broad over such small matters before... bet u guys mus be very interested eh?? hahax... someone strolled passed miie and called miie an ass hole was the first event.. followed by the usual cases of miie getting *bullied*... for that time... purposely being knocked onto, almost causing miie to fall... getting laughed at again by the same class or in fact... all class from that level... particularly, 5e1, 5e2 and 5e3.. go ahead and think i'm exaggerating if u want to... or probably think that i'm desperately needing some sympathy... i don need them... mark my words... or even, i don WANT them... obstacles... which doesn't kill miie, only makes miie stronger... how's that?
yun says i'm anti-social... auntie(jess's mum) said that i'm quite apprehensive probably... well... only to jess's mother here, i feel she's trying to be sweet here... probably wanting to console miie a little... well.. if that's her purpose of it, yah, she succeeded...
i'm not delibrately not taking any frens in... its jus... gosh... how'd i explain... i'm jus afraid things wunt go the right way again... or the way that i wanted at least... i didn't want things that happened in the secondary school years to happen again in the poly years... and if it does... den no point starting anew... as that, on starting anew... was what i'm always looking forward for when i got knowledge tat i'm being selected as 1 of the Nanyang student... call it low self-esteem if u wud... i have no confidence in myself... and so honestly here, i admit it.. if Poly were to have the same outcome as wad my sec school years had given miie on the topic of frens... believe miie... i'll go nuts... really... go insane... when stupidity actually really enters the world of mine... i'll go to the extend of doing things u wunt believe i'll do... expect the unexpectables till then...
lets analyse this den... simple enough... or probably, is what i want... making things as simple as it goes or come... if doing things my way in my sec school years had given miie the negative effect of the outcome.. i jus have to do the same thing the opposite way to have the positive outcome... right?? okay.. cool... tats it... i'll jus see how long i can last wif this den... all i hope.. gosh... pray hard nigel.. for 3 years... life's gonna be as easy as u think it is... and who told miie that?? karen... its u... eh? lolx... look... i jus really hope that my 3 years in poly wud be the best out of the 3 stages(primary, secondary, teritary) of life i've being to... apart from that... i've always wanted to be a top student of anything... think i'll do it?? don tell miie... cuz i know fully wad the answers are... jus give miie the chance to daydream a lil for now... sigh*
when things doesn't go my way.. all i cud do is... go their way... right? or i'll be known as the invader of the unique singapore alien of NYP already... the best thing to do... or the cleverest thing to do... is don do anything at all... or tell miie... do u have any better ideas den...?
ProfilE
[x] Name : Nigel Chua
[x] Age : 18
[x] First Cry : 26/03/88
[x] Current School : Nanyang Poly
WishlisT
[x] World Peace
[x] Top student in NYP
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[x] wish
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