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Friday, July 01, 2005
12:10 AM
[E]xP[e]Ct tH[e] UnE[x]PecTabLe[s]
sigh... i was looking foward for today... as.. kinda anxious bout my new working experience in Macdonald's... hehe... HoWeVeR... sigh... the *bullying* thingy came back to my life... im so... gee.. damn my school life.. James joshua... saw mi, walked pass mi, and called mi an ass hole... cool ya?? i was kinda disappointed... for i took the effort to respect him.. when he doesnt even respected mi... god damn it.. rescess.. and i was comforted by kc, su they all.. and know wad? it started again.. outside 5E3... that Amiru... from 5E3... great... i was along the corridor when i met up with him.. i took the effort to walked to the side to let him pass.. but he delibrately used his body to bang onto mi... almost causing mi to fall... not even tat... i dun mind the whole of sec 5s sees tat... but, when the 5e3 class saw that, as in.. they were outside their class waiting for the door to be unlocked so as to enter their class... and know wad they did?? they laughed.. i can still recall how loud Farhana's laughing voice are till now... somehow influencing mi on her image... damn her... the whole class maybe... yikes... i was jus.. almost so.. sigh... i jus kept these to myself.. as i always did...
till the SS class... i was so embarrassed... when Mr Siva was reprimandinging (scolding) the class... he noticed how unusally quiet i was... and started to question mi.. if i acutally had a bad mood... instantaneuosly, my tears started to flow.. as i recalled wad had happened... tried to hold back my tears... and when i speak... my voice TREMBLED.. cudnt believe that happened... i tried to say.. "nothing happened"... i managed to do tat... but wif my voice.. trembling... as if going to cry out anytime... i dunnoe why i was soo... pathetic... Mr Siva.. den continued to.. sigh... he continued to ask.. as i continued to reject him.. about answering him.. on his third question... i cudnt stand them and... answered.. tat i was somehow insulted by 5e3... i broke out... covering my face wif my hands... and wish upon god that my face isnt too red to show my shame... i cried... sigh...
the whole class was looking at mi back then... i felt... so humilated... so embarrassed... but.. the class.. went on.. silence... and Mr Siva requested mi to stay back for 5 mins as the whole class's being dismissed... only leaving wif Li Lian, Sara and Reeza, including mi... Mr Siva.. whose still questioning mi bout the whole story.. which i was hesitating to speak about... but... i seriously think.. i should keep this to myself.. and try to settle these myself... and when Mr Siva continued to ask.. the same thing happened... this time.. WoRsE... i cried... like as if trying delibrately to drown the ants below mi... LiLian, Sara... they were shocked... tats wad they told mi... nv had they seen mi cried so... so sad b4... the only thing i cud do... is jus to hide my face... wif my hands... i felt... so pathetic...
sigh... only until i got to Macdonald's do i cheered myself up again... working there was tiring... but it's worth of 3 things... first... money... hahax... second.. it took my time away... 3rd... somehow... it gave mi work.. tire mi.. and manage to lead these to forgetting wad had happened... my nex working day is Saturday... 9am to 2pm.. sigh... those whu went to Mac today.. thanks... i knew u guys wud supported mi.. hahax... especially Hui Zhen... wad u hinted mi out there was so encouraging...
back then today... i felt myself... being really too sensitive... wadeva is tat... im a guy.. tats tat... im a guy... and tat i cried... damn the whole idea... James Joshua... dun regard mi tat i'll even speak to u anymore... u'll from now on.. be under the category of insulting mi... not only mi, but my pride too... i never... did anything which im sorry about for u James... mark my words... i NEVER... and NEVER did i do anything wrong to yur class... be it i look like a sissy to u or a gay.. im still a young teenage like u guys.. with pride... and self dignity.. so look back and think about yur fucking self b4 u actually start insulting not only mi, but everyone else... u guys might jus treat this as a joke or something in calling ppl names like calling mi an ass hole... if its a joke, im telling u James, its not funny... and if u guys are teating this as a joke, FOR GOD SAKE think about wad the other party is feeling like b4 u start *joking* wif him or her... please... be more mature... know yur limits... know wad, most students of 5e3, u guys jus spoiled my day... now get this right... i'm now washing all ties wif u guys here and now... except for some whu treated mi like a human being, so... for god sake... please... leave mi alone...
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[x] Name : Nigel Chua
[x] Age : 18
[x] First Cry : 26/03/88
[x] Current School : Nanyang Poly
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[x] World Peace
[x] Top student in NYP
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