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Monday, April 25, 2005
3:32 PM

[E]xP[e]Ct tH[e] UnE[x]PecTabLe[s]

latest news... which i dun wish i'd asked if the answer was that bad... sigh... yup... it came from dilyse... and to remember in order of wad she had said, as i guessed, i'm irritating to her... and she said something like this... in point form... *Nigel to be more realistic (rational is the word Karen used), and that she can have a boyfriend, jus that she dont like Nigel...*

now... guess wad i'd feel... after a whole 1 year and 4 months of liking her and u heard that from someone else instead of her... think of it... i've asked her wad she felt bout mi... and she said she don know, whereas said another story to others and i need to go find out cuz i mind bout wad she said... and that... ah... my point is... why cant she be straight forward to mi so that i can have a peace of mind and so as not to have wild imagination of... argh... i think u guys should understand... sigh... jus simply so so sad and disappointed...

haiz... aint i realistic enough...?? or isit that im not even worth a friend?? im irritating... yes... i know that... but that simply means... kkz... look... if this make any sense... if a lady likes a guy, wadeva habits he have will end a good impression on her... even if its bad...
for example, he talked alot ---> i'm being entertained
he msg me every night ---> so as to keep mi accompany
he talked very loudly in public ---> he's trying to attract my attention... i liked it... :)

however, if its the other way round... if a lady disliked him naturally, this will happen...
he talked alot ---> he's annoying!!
he msg me every night ---> i'm not going to reply him... irritating fellow..!!
he talked very loudly in public ---> stupid selfish fellow... no shame at all..!!

making any sense here?? its true u know... sigh... therefore, i think, im not even in the stand of being her friend... now now... still day dreaming of walking wif her through the park, with fragrance of flowers everywhere and only the two of us... this sentence even came to my mind... if i were to dream of Karen every night i sleep, my wish is to sleep forever... that is who unrealistic i am... maybe Karen's right... i AM irritating... and that i am unrealistic at the same time... thinking all the way that determination is one important key to a relationship... guess im not matured mentally enough to even talk bout these then... sigh...